So...I ended a bad relationship about 10 days ago. We've known each other for a long time. It's been coming for awhile, I knew it had to be done, I was just hoping the friendship would kind of die out. You know, the business of life would just kind of take us our separate ways and I could avoid the "awkward moment" or the "it's not you, it's me" conversation. I finally had to make a decision and end it.
I think the trauma is just setting in. I found myself struggling to keep it together today. I kept thinking that maybe I need to re-assess the friendship. My friend could be pretty cool. I mean, apart from the complete lack of concern for how their behavior affected me, it wasn't all bad. Having said that, I did stay up a lot of nights because of them. My friend has this way of getting me amped up. But is it their fault that I get wound up so easily?
And if I'm honest, my friend was NOT good for my diet, either. Everytime I started to make progress with changing my eating habits, they would cajole me into cheating "just a little." And I always felt completely drained after they were gone. Ever had a friend that became a complete energy suck?!
I can't lay all the blame at my friend's feet. I must have gotten something out of the friendship to have let it go on so long, right?
Okay, I've got to quit second-guessing myself! I already made this decision, I need to move on. Moooove on. Moving on now. That's better.
One of the problems I have with this whole thing is that my ex-friend and I hang out at a lot of the same places. I'm gonna have to figure out a way to avoid them. It could be tough, we have a lot of common aquaintances. It's for the best though and I guess a little bit of awkwardness now is better than a lot of hate later on. I've said my goodbyes, I have to move on.
Oh - in case you're wondering.
I think the trauma is just setting in. I found myself struggling to keep it together today. I kept thinking that maybe I need to re-assess the friendship. My friend could be pretty cool. I mean, apart from the complete lack of concern for how their behavior affected me, it wasn't all bad. Having said that, I did stay up a lot of nights because of them. My friend has this way of getting me amped up. But is it their fault that I get wound up so easily?
And if I'm honest, my friend was NOT good for my diet, either. Everytime I started to make progress with changing my eating habits, they would cajole me into cheating "just a little." And I always felt completely drained after they were gone. Ever had a friend that became a complete energy suck?!
I can't lay all the blame at my friend's feet. I must have gotten something out of the friendship to have let it go on so long, right?
Okay, I've got to quit second-guessing myself! I already made this decision, I need to move on. Moooove on. Moving on now. That's better.
One of the problems I have with this whole thing is that my ex-friend and I hang out at a lot of the same places. I'm gonna have to figure out a way to avoid them. It could be tough, we have a lot of common aquaintances. It's for the best though and I guess a little bit of awkwardness now is better than a lot of hate later on. I've said my goodbyes, I have to move on.
Oh - in case you're wondering.
